i really hate days like this, i mean it wasn't that bad overall but thinking about my dad was probably the worse thing ever. and somehow i remembered that good charlotte's song emotionless or something like that and it's about banj's and joel's father. i can really relate to their story so that's probably why that song makes me cry like a little baby. ohhh another thing, i found a picture of me and my father (which is a miracle cause we have like only two pictures together w.w)

"Its been a long hard road without you by my side.
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart,
You broke your children for life.
Its not okay,
but we're alright.
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes,
but Those are just a long lost memory of mine.
I spent so many years learning how to survive,
now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive."
"And sometimes I forget,
and this time,
I'll admit,
That I miss you,I miss you,
Hey Dad..."